Money

Dont you hate the fact how money runs your life?

It dicates your mood just as much as weight. 

No money to go out and enjoy yourself = Bad mood

No money to buy food = Good and bad mood

Enough money to buy lots of yummy fruits and salad bits = Good mood

No money to buy your junk food = VERY BAD MOOD <3

134 this morning. 

Buuuutttttt i didnt get home untill 3.30am 

Drove from Windsor back up nooorth after a night out. 

(well the guy im seeing is an event manager up north and down south, so went with him)

Starving hungry from only having an apple and a bag of crisps all day - I would have gone without but honestly thought i was going to pass out in the club! 

So asked them to pick me up some chicken nuggets and they didnt have any so they bought me a chicken Kebab. 

First time i have ever had one and i can safely say i will never ever EVER have one again. 

ERGH./ 

So that was about 2.30am and waking up early etc no time to digest go through my system and not enough sleep. 

So as i dont have an overdraft i have to pay for borrowing money. This month its £125.00 ONTOP of what i already owe the bank from borrowing. :( 

So i just had a binge on food. Comfort food. 

But not i feel fat urgh and just really want to climb into a big ball in bed. 

I dont get it, the number says i should be skinny but im not! 

I need to do what i did at the beginning of August that got me down from 142 to 132. 

SF Red bull and Apples for lunch and salad for dinner. EVERY day with exercise. 

I want to be 125 or lower. i need to be skinny. i need to have an unexpected picture taken and actually look good any angle!

On the pluss not. Fit a size 8 dont I! Shame i dont look it.

-Love C

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Remember me - Life Update

133.fuck knows lbs

So I know ive dissapeard for a bit, but im just really busy. 

My weight has stayed at 133 for ages. Either my scales are broken or im stuck in some stupid plateau but im planning on getting out of it this week. 

Im seeing all these pictures of me and im just seeing fat plumpy urgh girl. 

I need to be 125lbs now. I need to get there 3lbs is not going to make the difference so i need to get to my UGW. 

So thats me above on the far right. 

BEING SOAKED IN CHAMPAGNE. 

Who says im not having a good time? 

Im loving life, its jsut turned into a massive party after rich and ive met an AMAZING guy :) 

He makes me happy. Hes nothing like R. 

Hes younger (not 27years old - actually my age!)

he is compatable with me, and we have such a good time. Actually him in the above picture coating me in champagne...Think thats a hobby of his covering me in a alcohol haha. 

Ill try and keep you all updated as much as i can. 

Plan for today. SF Relentless and Apples <3

Hope your all well?

-Love C

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