Wednesday 18 April 2012

Weight Fluctuation

 

I just felt that i needed to share with y'all that weight fluctuation is pretty normal. 

Above is my chart - kind of stopped using it though, as you can see from mine my last update was 4th april ... Oops

Idk, just having this chart makes me feel better that even though i have ups and downs its still going down. 

yes its not going down as quick as it used to and im still 137.4lbs bla bla but it still shows it is. 

Ive been reading some blogs and noticed people fluctuating and gaining which is causing binges... I just want to kind of say your not alone! It happens to me and im almost certain it happens to everyone else. You can see were i had a super bad binge stage, and also were i got ill and lost tons really quick. 

Sorry for the shitty blog! At work and my head is all over the place! 

-C

Monday 16 April 2012

Little rant



So yes i went up to 138lbs - but that was because for breakfast at R's (i never have breakfast) I had a cookie and a Mr Kipling angel cake $%$%£~@#"$% GRRRR

But to my little rant ... 

My friend is slowley become the moodey, grumpy, snarky, attention seeking, cherry topping poo brain!

I cant stand it. I dont understand why people turn this way.

We are her best friends and shes having to lie and make everything about her and i dont know why. 

She had a fake phone conversation the other day, and its not the first one. 

a guy 'called' her and she was yelling on the phone saying ' i told you not to call me when im with my friends, thanks for the compliment but i dont want you giving them to me, go home to your fiance' bla bla bla. 

you know its fake. you cant fake a conversation on
 an iPhone. on any phone really. Were not stupid :(

We went for brunch on saturday after we all went clubbing friday (them being able to drink were very hungover) we were discussing what to wear that evening for Northampton clubbing. 

I said it sucks that none of us are the same size except H and M. 

J is a midget and is size 4/6, H&M are size 8's and i can fit into the occasional big size clothes they buy being a size 10 now :D:D (so happy im that size) and i said and your a size 10/12 to B. And she went ape poo. Just snarkly said, im a size 12 and proud.

I just wanted to yell and scream. If your proud of being a size 12 why do you go on about loosing weight. I was trying to be nice saying she was a size 10/12 as she went mental when i was telling a guy that xsmall is a 6 Small is an 8-10 medium is a 12 large is a 14 and xlarge is a 16 etc etc

She did the worlds worst friend thing on saturday too. 

as i was sober i was driving and i went to go find R who also came out and i bumped into J and B came out and said right lets go home. I asked were H&M were and she simply replied 'there not coming with us there staying here and going home with josh (not a clue who he is so im putting the name)

it had taken me 30 mins to find J and R so i wasnt planning on attempting to go back into NB's as its about 4 rooms inside and then a huge outside area with 2 bars. HUGE! so i took her word thinking 'who would make that up and ditch there best friends in northampton when we live a good £45 taxi away'

Morning for lunch at the family lounge/pub we always go to they came in and said 'thanks for leaving us in ntown last night, thank god we found half the guys to share a taxi home with' #£%£"!!"£ i explained what had happend and they understood as B had been saying allsorts to them. ERGH. Why did she do it! Why am i still friends with her. 

She did sleep with the guy i was seeing once because i spent more time with him than her. 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Rant over. 

-C