Money

Dont you hate the fact how money runs your life?

It dicates your mood just as much as weight. 

No money to go out and enjoy yourself = Bad mood

No money to buy food = Good and bad mood

Enough money to buy lots of yummy fruits and salad bits = Good mood

No money to buy your junk food = VERY BAD MOOD <3

134 this morning. 

Buuuutttttt i didnt get home untill 3.30am 

Drove from Windsor back up nooorth after a night out. 

(well the guy im seeing is an event manager up north and down south, so went with him)

Starving hungry from only having an apple and a bag of crisps all day - I would have gone without but honestly thought i was going to pass out in the club! 

So asked them to pick me up some chicken nuggets and they didnt have any so they bought me a chicken Kebab. 

First time i have ever had one and i can safely say i will never ever EVER have one again. 

ERGH./ 

So that was about 2.30am and waking up early etc no time to digest go through my system and not enough sleep. 

So as i dont have an overdraft i have to pay for borrowing money. This month its £125.00 ONTOP of what i already owe the bank from borrowing. :( 

So i just had a binge on food. Comfort food. 

But not i feel fat urgh and just really want to climb into a big ball in bed. 

I dont get it, the number says i should be skinny but im not! 

I need to do what i did at the beginning of August that got me down from 142 to 132. 

SF Red bull and Apples for lunch and salad for dinner. EVERY day with exercise. 

I want to be 125 or lower. i need to be skinny. i need to have an unexpected picture taken and actually look good any angle!

On the pluss not. Fit a size 8 dont I! Shame i dont look it.

-Love C

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You Blocked me on Facebook

132.6lbs

Its soooo strange putting that number! 

Its strange though im still feeling fat, not quite skinny yet. I still have all my fat rolls, im still a size 10. 

I would have though loosing 7lbs would have taken a bit of the weight off but no im the damn same. 

Ive been here for a while so fingers crosed this is my new level to hang around. 

Sorry i havent posted in a while, ive been super super busy. 

I havent let myself have time to think with this break up. 

Ive also been going to my hospital appointment and booking all sorts of things. 

Confirmed cyst in my foot - OH JOY! 

Have to wait untill the 20th August to discuss with my doctor treatment plans. I could ask for any other doctor but you know when you just want your own?

Calmed on the drinking but thats cuz the Promo team are in Windsor. There back tomorrow afternoon. 

They want to see me. I cant have a late night though as i need to be up at 6am Friday morning to get to London For the Olympics. 

:)

Perhaps i could drive to Northampton for the evening and if they do go out only have a few and leave by 1am? 

As im feeling very british here is some British thinspo

<3

-Love C

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SELF DISTRUCT MODE

132.8lbs

Arrive home from a very relaxed weekend away at centre parcs. 

My Promotions boss begs me to drive an hour to join him and shane for a hot tub and movie night. 

I go of course know that it ment hot tub and alcohol night. 

way to much alcohol consumed for a SUNDAY night and with work in the morning. 

Not going to go into details but yer, End up fucking my Promo boss. Thats going to be awkward next time i see him! 

Good rebound sex though!

sleep at 5am. 

Wake up at 7.30am On the hard floor with a rug as a blanket freezing cold with a guy either side of me. 

Is it strange that going out drinking with guys is way more fun than the girls sometimes! 

I know some of you wont be impressed and a side of me isnt impressed either but, ive just come out of a relationship and i just want to have fun, and whats the harm in that really? Im not putting myself in danger, im always letting people know were im going

:) 

Im having fun and thats all that matters right?

Oh and i got home from Centre Parcs and there was an envelope with my name on it!

 RICH WROTE ME A LETTER. 

 Must admit i didnt know wether to cry at it or laugh. Im mixed feelings about it. 

Hmmm he asked that he doesnt get a response from it so ill respect his wishes and not say anything. 

-Love C

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OMG OMG OMG OMG

my aim is to become this again.

bearing in  mind i started my PERIOD today. 

134.8lbs 

Lowest weight yet baby! 

This is great motivation. Starting wednesday here. 

130 then 125 dont seem so far away now. Just within my reach. 

Ill just need to learn to maintain at 130 as i did 140 and i should be ok. Not sure how i got myself to maintain....Slowly and gradually eating a little bit more each day. And then BAM. not loosing anymore. 

i cannot wait to get smaller and smaller and fit into size 8. 

not too far. it seems weird once being 158lbs and size 12. 

now being 134lbs and size 10. 

Makes me think im going to have to get to 125 to even consider a size 8.

This best not be the case. I dont think id look too skinny. I loved the way i looked when i was around 5'7/5'8 at the time and size 4. 

That was sweet bliss. Everything hung perfectly and i had this FABULOUS hour glass figure going on. Dont believe me?

Who remembers this picture?

yer sorry about the drawing i was bored and going through gcse's

God 15 and 5 years ago! 

No wonder im not that size anymore. 

the one thing i hate is how i used to eat fuck all and smoke lots. no i wasnt heavily into splif's as the drawing says. All my friends were but i did it for a month had a not so great experience and never went back. 

-Love C

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Dont know how weight loss works

yesterday Morning i weighed in at 140.4lbs

This morning i weighed in at 136.6lbs

I seriously dont understand.

all weekend ive been eating shit for the hell of it.

yesterday i had my standard apple youghurt banana and salad. 

That bought me waaaaaaaay down to 136. 

I guess i have to keep control today and see what happens. 

i just dont want the same to happen every single god forsaken weekend. i just need one weekend were im good. this weekend perhaps?

9th august i go away to mallorca. I WILL be 130lbs 

i dont have a choice what i eat out there, my family cook shite. perhaps ill ask for salad and fruit combinations for the duration of the holiday. 

Anyway nothing more to really fill you in on. My life is pretty tame, nothing out of the ordinarly, R and i are slowly getting back to normal. 

Gym tonight? Ill probably end up bailing again. 

-Love C

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Healthy Time

^^ My fridge^^

Just to state the tortellini pasta is my brothers along with the chicken and feta cheese.

So im going for a slightly higher calorie intake.

Not that it exceeds 500cals. 

Fruit for lunch/morning snack. Banana, apple, pinapple, mango.

Salad for dinner : lettuce, sweetcorn, tomato, cucumber, croutons, ham or tuna

Weight Watchers yoghurts - 54cals each! 

Carrot stick for evening snack

So yer. I had that last night and i never thought i could be full from a salad! Its strange how i ate alot of food and its sooo little in calories. (I made a big salad)

So didnt end up going to the gym...i pulled a muscle on monday and it was quite sore and didnt want to make it worse. Today its gone so no excuse. 

So my weight today id only 136.2lbs 

I think i could have gotten more if i went to the gym. 

Im so happy with this and its only a Wednesday. If i keep this up loose a pound untill Friday. i should be 134lbs roughly. And im not going out Friday and i need to be good on Saturday. And when i drink NOT to eat shit after. Im scared to drink on a salad belly though :/

Ive had lots of people asking me what the wobble machine is. 

wobble Machine Info 

that is it. 

It vibrates really quick. 

10minutes is equivilant to 1hour conventunal work out. (apparently)

it helps tone muscle and all that jazz. Also reduces cellulite and speeds up your metabolism. 

I like it after a long session on the cross trainer as it loosens my muscles so i dont feel sore the next day :) 

P.s i Ordered the zero stuff. 

41% extra fat burn here i come. 

 www.highfive.co.uk/try-zero 

Order the trial pack

- x3 tubes of zero

-x1 water bottle. 

Discount code: summer2012

Dont forget to select BFPO payment. 

They have a offer that if you ONLY buy that product you get free delivery but have to select that option. 

So instead of paying £24 odd for the stuff and £5.60 for P&P

You pay a total of £15 

40% discount baby. 

Cant wait for mine to come and get an easy ride to skinnyness. 

Skinny Together <3

-Love C

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An Apple a Day keeps the fatness away

So over the weekend i put on quite a bit of weight ... chicken burger to cure the hangover, pizza to line the stomach, lasagne to keep me going, burger and chips to soak up the alcohol, chicken nuggets to do the same. 

140lbs Yesterday. 

137.6 Today.

Apple Diet. 

Apples suppress appetite. 

Apples are a natural laxative. 

Royal Gala apples = 43 calories each

My theory is apple diet = skinny.

Proven that it works. 

Yes i only had 2. 

 Yes i can survive on that.

Also i was reading this month's Cosmo and got a free discount booklet. 

It came with a free discount code for Zero.

They are tablets you dilute in water and its proven to burn 41% more fat when walking and exercising. 

3 tubes (10 tablets in each) and a water bottle the correct size for x1. 

I think i might try it. Only £21.40 with my discount code. 

Might worl for you guys too. 

www.highfive.co.uk/try-zero

Code: summer2012

Lets get skinny together :) 

-Love C

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Bloating

So i said to myself dont go for a diet coke at the cinema aas it will make me bloat and wont have enough time to go down before i go to bed. 

Atleast i said no to the popcorn!!! 

So woke up at 136.8lbs

Still not bad. Its no 140! so happy to be away from that number. 

I hate being bloated though. I just feel ergh all over and its not the best motivation. 

On a pluss side my legs are killing and have the bruising all over them again :) 

I love that because i used to bruise all the time when my legs actually shrunk in size. None on the thighs yet, its all on the calf. 

Another 35mins on the cross trainer (elliptical) should sort that out. 

perhaps its the fact that i didnt do much at stomp last night. I didnt quite think it through that i cant run on my foot or put pressure.Why did i think i could do a STOMP class. Which is high intensity step which you pretty much stomp your feet too. KILLER. 

so i pretty much just stood there for an hour. 

Thats why i only do crosstrainer now, only thing that doesnt kill my foot. 

You should all try the wobble machine though. 

10mins on that (the max you can do) is equal to 1hour workout. 

it increases your bloodflow so speeds up your metabolism.

reduces cellutite and tones your body. 

Only side effect is it makes you itch all over!

Lets see if i can stick away from the fizzy after 5!

Wish me luck. 

Stay Strong girls 

-Love C

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