The Jealous Sibling AKA me

Sisters.

So this is my sister. SUPER SUPER SUPER skinny. 

Its not fair. She used to be alot bigger than this. How did she manage it?

AND she is 2 years older than me so its not the young metabolism thing. It actually sucks. 

I used to be the skinny child/ 

And she got larger and so did i but she decided to get rid of it all and i remained! 

Horrible horrible horrible. 

i dont think ive got any pictures of her in her larger state but she was a size 14 and now she is an 8 and could probably fit in size 6 clothing.

It just makes me want to cry that she did this and hasnt got many issues with food. she wants to have a junk trip when we travel down to center parcs. If she had issues like me she would not be suggesting this. ERgh HATE MY LIFE> 

-Love C

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OMG OMG OMG OMG

my aim is to become this again.

bearing in  mind i started my PERIOD today. 

134.8lbs 

Lowest weight yet baby! 

This is great motivation. Starting wednesday here. 

130 then 125 dont seem so far away now. Just within my reach. 

Ill just need to learn to maintain at 130 as i did 140 and i should be ok. Not sure how i got myself to maintain....Slowly and gradually eating a little bit more each day. And then BAM. not loosing anymore. 

i cannot wait to get smaller and smaller and fit into size 8. 

not too far. it seems weird once being 158lbs and size 12. 

now being 134lbs and size 10. 

Makes me think im going to have to get to 125 to even consider a size 8.

This best not be the case. I dont think id look too skinny. I loved the way i looked when i was around 5'7/5'8 at the time and size 4. 

That was sweet bliss. Everything hung perfectly and i had this FABULOUS hour glass figure going on. Dont believe me?

Who remembers this picture?

yer sorry about the drawing i was bored and going through gcse's

God 15 and 5 years ago! 

No wonder im not that size anymore. 

the one thing i hate is how i used to eat fuck all and smoke lots. no i wasnt heavily into splif's as the drawing says. All my friends were but i did it for a month had a not so great experience and never went back. 

-Love C

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Dont know how weight loss works

yesterday Morning i weighed in at 140.4lbs

This morning i weighed in at 136.6lbs

I seriously dont understand.

all weekend ive been eating shit for the hell of it.

yesterday i had my standard apple youghurt banana and salad. 

That bought me waaaaaaaay down to 136. 

I guess i have to keep control today and see what happens. 

i just dont want the same to happen every single god forsaken weekend. i just need one weekend were im good. this weekend perhaps?

9th august i go away to mallorca. I WILL be 130lbs 

i dont have a choice what i eat out there, my family cook shite. perhaps ill ask for salad and fruit combinations for the duration of the holiday. 

Anyway nothing more to really fill you in on. My life is pretty tame, nothing out of the ordinarly, R and i are slowly getting back to normal. 

Gym tonight? Ill probably end up bailing again. 

-Love C

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