Keeping My Promise

So im keeping my promise that i would upload a picture.

I know im not usally one to blur out my face etc but its got W in it and so thought it best! 

The image is awfull and you cant really see the outfit soo tonight im going to get myself into it and take a picture of it on my camera and upload it for you. So you will either get it this afternoon or early morning :) 

my weight is slowly going up and i need it to go down. 

BUT

My card has declined from being sooo far into my overdraft (i dont have an overdraft or limit) that they have actually said enough! 

Ooopps

So cant afford food petrol anything sooooo my weight should platuea for a day or two getting used to being back into starvation mode and then it will start to go down again. 

Im getting back into the gym now. I WILL go tonight. Got my friend whos going to join me so thats a bit of extra motivation! 

 

Im now working 3 jobs as of the 1st october to try and pay for stuff. These other two are two days each both cash in hand so it will give me about 100 a week cash. 

 

But that will mean my october month is fine but then my hours go down at my main job so ill be working that 3 days -_- 

 

So ill have to get the babysitting an extra day. Make my wage go up a bit more as im soo busy and im in demand from the children. (What can i say kids love me....Shame i really cant stand these two kids)

 

And fingers crossed the nightclub gets a third night also that i can work on tills with or something. That would be reallly good. 

 

My addiction to energy drinks isnt going anywhere soon. 

I have to have atleast 1 can of energy drink to feel fine in the mornign otherwise i will be rocking what feels like a hangover untill i have one. 2 days of thinking i had a hangover untill i crached open a can of SF Monster. 3 sips in, headache had gone. I no longer felt like i was going to crash or be sickl. I instantly felt £1000000 pounds.

 

Now to get that much money! 

 

Will try and post pictures later. 

 

Love to you alll <3

 

-C

 

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Back bra fat

Goodmorning Bloggers

Ive recently done some asos shopping but really worried. 

I was out in Windsor shopping 

(are you seeing a pattern here? Im a shopperholic)
anyway - I was out shopping for a new outfit to go out that night (bearing in mind im already in debt)

Found a ton of really nice playsuits and dresses etc. 

Size 10 are too big and look silly, yet size 8's are just a little tooo tight on my belly

I am sooooo bloated latly due to eating crap - 135lbs

OOOO and im official with Will

:D

Said  to him im going back to the gym so he will have to be bored at my house a little bit longer as i leave him home alone while i come to work..

But he wants to come with me - Im ok with this, All i do is the elliptical so not toooo bothered. cant do anything else due to my cyst in my foot. 

So back to the main point of this blog - i wonder off way too easily.

I bought this: 

 

Got it in a size 8 as i thought you want it to be tight etc and when i buy leggings i get a 8 so figers crossed it fits. 

But im really worried that im going to have back overhang over all of the straps on the back. 

And i dont know what to do about a bra as im not flat chested like the woman in the picture - Im a 32DD and the gell stick on backless bra's only go to a D -_-

I should start a fashion blog of all the outfits i buy. and shove together. Im going out enough. 

Might do that when i have some time on my hands but as Will is technically homeless and did live in Windsor and im Northamptonshire he is pratically living with me. 

This realtionship is going to kill me. As hes an Event manager for nightclubs alot of girls want him. Even the girls who work for him at the club i work for go up to him saying they like him and want him bla bla bla and then QUIT when they find out were together. Its crazy especially when the girls are my work friends to!

In the club the other night and a girl ran over ad jumped on him and wrapped her legs around him. His brother leaned over to me and said 'how do you put up with that?' I simply reply, I dont but i dont have a choice- its going to happen if im happy or not about it.

Got a realllly Sweet text from him randomly the otherday when he went back to his friends bar and i carried on shopping...

' When I'm not with you I miss everything about you, even that cheey little grin.. Your doing it now!!! Stoppp grinning...stopppp!! You've made me so happy all i can say is thank you miss dixon :) I hope this continues and ill do everything in my power to make you happy xxxxxxx'

^^ How sweet is that^^ 

Ahhhhhh :)

well i think ive bored you enough with this post sooo till next time 

Love C

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After Shock

really sorry i didnt post yesterday i had to go with my friend to hospital as she was in alot of pain. 

Bacterial infection, Urine infection and a ripped cervix! 

OUCH. 

No wonder she was in pain. 

So the magical number youve all been waiting to hear. 

I should have taken bets on what my boozing holiday did to my weight.

140.2lbs 

:) 

Im soo  happy with that from the amount i ate. 

Burger king, pizza hut, alot of baguettes and bread. Burgers, steak. 

not to mention to alcohol calories! 

I guess sweating it out and all the walking helped! 

5th floor and the elevators smelt of wee or had sick in them so it was always stairs.

Back to my healthy eating now and seeing as im used to eating normal i guess as soon as i go back to my minimal the weight will fall off me like a fat pair of jeans! 

Jack Wills Varsity Polo tomorrow. 

Always go for my birthday. 

20years old on the 20th June. 

I CANNOT be fat in all my pictures. I know im going to be huge in JWVP ones but i cant exactly cut weight off in a day! Talk about the impossible! 

So 10 days ... a pound ish a day. I can be 136 for my birthday, i will be SOOOO happy. :)

Lets start.

Whos with me?

Stay Strong and Think Thin. 

-Love C

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(Just a bit of feather tatto thinspo <3)

Alot of people have the feather tatto on there rib! Guess i must have a common brain/imagination! 

Enjoy 

<3

MAGALLUF

Weight : Who knows

Alcohol Consumed : Who Kows - im probably still drunk

Food Consumed: Lunch and dinner everyday

Puked: 0 times

Toilet: I LIVED ON THAT THING

So as you can see from the above picture i had a pretty wild time! 

Oh i got my first tattoo.

Probably not the best place to get it as i know spain dont have the same rules and regulations. 

I swear it wasnt real as i hear the stories about it hurting and i had mine right on my ribs. 

TICKLED LIKE HELL. 

the guy had to keep telling me to stop laughing.

 In its clingfilm and its a bit flakey at the moment so when its healed ill take a better picture for y'all. 

I got the feather to resemble 'free spirit' as i do everything myself. Moved out at 18, LOVE getting out the country. 

Holiday number 4 in August! and might be heading back to Maga in July!

i love that more people are finding my site so HELLO 

:) 

Ill be stepping on the scales tomorrow morning ... AHHH IM SO SCARED :( 

probably gained a Stone! 

sorry this post is a bit here there and everywere but im ever so tired, swear im still drunk or experienceing alcohol withdrawals. 

was up super early from work this morning and its just turned 3 so HOME TIME. 

ill post again with the news tomorrow.

-Love C

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ooooohhhhh SNAP

137.4 lbs

I GOT HERE THIS TIME BY DOING IT THE RIGHT WAY NOT BY VOMING IRRATIONALLY DUE TO A STOMACH BUG!

Hells fricking yes. I am deffintily NOT giving up what im doing now. 

I will deffinitly not binge!

everything seems to be falling into place. 

The girls cancelled last night so i didnt binge and didnt go even over 200cals... lets see

Breakfast:

Nothing (as always)

Lunch: 

Kiwi 14cals

Baby Biscotti 21cals

Dinner:

Apple puree 51cals

Can of full fat coke 42cals

Snack:

5 cherry tomatoes 11cals

Small chunk of cucumber 1cal

Total: 140

Exercise: 0

Had to babysit in the evening so a good distraction. 

babysitting all of today and then im rushing straight off to the theatre to see dirty dancing 

:D :D :D :D

(which is something else that went perfect, we were meant to be having dinner before as we always do but my dad is going to be stuck at work so my mum said eat before you come over! ... it's as if theirs a skinny gardian angel looking out for me!)

and then home to bed or R's depending how late i am. 

Stay strong. 

Hope your all having a good as week as me 

<3

-Love C

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Thank You

This is just a post to say a quick thank you to all of you readers

 <3

You have really made it alot easier to get through this and just knowing your there for support is great. 

Im officially back and wont be going anywere. 

Except 29th-5th June when im on holiday number 3

:)

Must get super skinny for it. 

COMMON LETS DO IT TOGETHER. 

p.s ran out of diet coke so had to have one of my brothers full fat. OMG i was sooooooo hungry before and now i cant finish the can. 

Kind of like how half a can fills you up. 

so half is only 21cals

actually not that ba, except for it being really heavy. If a drink can be heavy :/

idk.

Well thank you and love to you all! 

<3

-Love C

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Cigerettes

I wish my hair was still long like this. 

Going to grow it and soon the hair dye will be fully in my hair and it wont be so soft and flat! 

Main thing i hate about dying hair. 

Cigerettes is what i used to live off when i looked like this.
I guess i know what i have to do.

If i go back to my old diet mixed with my new one i should be able to get there.

Breakfast: 

A few sips of Fizzy Lemonade to keep sugar levels up through the day. 

Cigerette

Lunch:

Freddo bar (not sure they do these anymore so im going to have my babyfood puree)

Cigerette.

Dinner:

Cigerette

1 piece of fruit

Exercise: 

Atleast an hour of something

if my body was that thin once i CAN do it again. 

My friends say it was too skinny, but to me that looks perfect. 

The hair in the first picture the size of the second picture. I will look FABULOUS 

<3

-C

My theory

So i realised i havent posted in a while, ive been super busy at work bla bla (boring stuff)

 SO i was thinking, how many fat people do you see smiling while walking around? 

You dont because there always out of breath.

How many skinny girls do you see smiling while walking around?

Pretty much all of them, even if there alone. 

I want to be able to have a constant smile fixed to my face.

Managed to loose as i went up to 138 yesterday. so back down to 137.4lbs. 

pretty much only ate fruit yesterday. and have a portion of chips at 1am as i was starving from no dinner. 

im still on my antibiotics so i cant drink but you know what, i feel better today, i still had a good night out, and i didnt gain any weight because i danced it all off and didnt have any alcohol calories! 

Same again tonight so im looking for another loose. i hope. 

Have to go for lunch with the girls but not being hungover im not dying for food, think im just going to go there for the company. 

I enjoyed having one of the guys who 2 of the girls in the group know well and bought him out started talking to me saying how skinny im getting. 

I hadnt realised he goes to the gym everyday. arrives 30mins before i leave if im late or just as im finishing in the gym. And he was saying how i look different everytime. (that my boobs look bigger when im not in gym clothes as i must have an extremly tight sports bra - then had to explain to him what a push up bra was!) I really liked it, hes my new best friend. Anybody who thinks im slimming down is my new best friend. 

Do you hate the way people who notice you lost weight saying but you wernt fat to begin with? If i wasnt fat to begin with how have i managed to loose 20lbs and still have more left on me to go? if there wasnt anything to loose how have i done that?

I think girls have a side motive. They dont want you to get skinnier than them because that then means they have to do some work so they remain the hot skinny friend and dont turn into the 'fat friend'

Sorry this post is a bit of a ramble! 

Stay strong and Think Thin

<3

-C

OVER THE MOON WITH HAPPYNESS

137.4lbs 

FUCKK YEAH! 

So happy

:) 

Had to share with you guys immediatly

<3

-Love C 

xx