Keeping My Promise

So im keeping my promise that i would upload a picture.

I know im not usally one to blur out my face etc but its got W in it and so thought it best! 

The image is awfull and you cant really see the outfit soo tonight im going to get myself into it and take a picture of it on my camera and upload it for you. So you will either get it this afternoon or early morning :) 

my weight is slowly going up and i need it to go down. 

BUT

My card has declined from being sooo far into my overdraft (i dont have an overdraft or limit) that they have actually said enough! 

Ooopps

So cant afford food petrol anything sooooo my weight should platuea for a day or two getting used to being back into starvation mode and then it will start to go down again. 

Im getting back into the gym now. I WILL go tonight. Got my friend whos going to join me so thats a bit of extra motivation! 

 

Im now working 3 jobs as of the 1st october to try and pay for stuff. These other two are two days each both cash in hand so it will give me about 100 a week cash. 

 

But that will mean my october month is fine but then my hours go down at my main job so ill be working that 3 days -_- 

 

So ill have to get the babysitting an extra day. Make my wage go up a bit more as im soo busy and im in demand from the children. (What can i say kids love me....Shame i really cant stand these two kids)

 

And fingers crossed the nightclub gets a third night also that i can work on tills with or something. That would be reallly good. 

 

My addiction to energy drinks isnt going anywhere soon. 

I have to have atleast 1 can of energy drink to feel fine in the mornign otherwise i will be rocking what feels like a hangover untill i have one. 2 days of thinking i had a hangover untill i crached open a can of SF Monster. 3 sips in, headache had gone. I no longer felt like i was going to crash or be sickl. I instantly felt £1000000 pounds.

 

Now to get that much money! 

 

Will try and post pictures later. 

 

Love to you alll <3

 

-C

 

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138.8lbs 

So i havent posted in a while, no its not because ive been away again. 

Ive been in my little town doing nothing...well not nothing. Ive been stuffing my face. 

So i havent wanted to post as ive been ever soo ashamed. But im now back into the 130's and I SHALL NOT get back into the 140's

Im back at the gym now. 

45mins Cross Trainer/elliptical (Whatever you want to call it)

5 Mins Wobble Machine. <-- LOVE THAT THING
 

Breakfast- Nothing

Lunch - 1/2 pack Spanish cherry tomatoes

Dinner - 2 Charlotte Pots

Small dipping bread in aviolli 

Small dipping bread with penut butter

Crisp Sandwich :(

But hey i still lost so fingers crossed for more losses. 

And seeing as ive been eating like a pig recently the weight should fall off. 

Ive realised i havent been loosing and when i do its because im drinking lots of water. So im back on my 2 litres of water thing. I can have a mini pig out as long as i have the water!!! 

and doing that i dont seem to have to much of a gain so yes. JUT DRINK WATER! 

how have all of y'all been doing?

Fingers crossed not failing like me. 

Ive been really terrible with reading blogs aswell. - SORRY!

But i will read as many as i can but i think ill only go back a day as i dont have enough time! 

Again sorry for abandoning you all. 

-Love C

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Cookie Monster

Firstly a BIG BIG BIG thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. 

Really helps knowing that you all know and understand what im going through and that your always here supporting me! 

However...............

Yesterday my car broke down :( 

Thats not all. 

It broke down outside Tesco! 

Thats not all. 

Due to the stress of having your car thickly smoke i bought stress food.

Crisps, Sausage roll, COOKIES. 

Thats not all. 

Mother picked me up and took me to hers. 

What happened when i got to hers?

SHE FED ME ALL THIS JUNK FOOD SHE WANTED TO GET RID OF.

Ive never eaten so much food in my life. 

On the pluss side though im craving tomatoes and fruit :) 

This never happens but maybe its a side of me trying to fight back and say they dont want to wake up in the morning and see 141 on the scales they want to see 131.

I can do this.

WE can do this! 

Who's with me?

Lets start with 1 week. If we make sure we eat our 5 a day fingers crossed by the time we have finished that we wont want any crap of normal foood.

5portions a day of either fruit or veg. 

:D

Stay strong

-Love C

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MAGALLUF

Weight : Who knows

Alcohol Consumed : Who Kows - im probably still drunk

Food Consumed: Lunch and dinner everyday

Puked: 0 times

Toilet: I LIVED ON THAT THING

So as you can see from the above picture i had a pretty wild time! 

Oh i got my first tattoo.

Probably not the best place to get it as i know spain dont have the same rules and regulations. 

I swear it wasnt real as i hear the stories about it hurting and i had mine right on my ribs. 

TICKLED LIKE HELL. 

the guy had to keep telling me to stop laughing.

 In its clingfilm and its a bit flakey at the moment so when its healed ill take a better picture for y'all. 

I got the feather to resemble 'free spirit' as i do everything myself. Moved out at 18, LOVE getting out the country. 

Holiday number 4 in August! and might be heading back to Maga in July!

i love that more people are finding my site so HELLO 

:) 

Ill be stepping on the scales tomorrow morning ... AHHH IM SO SCARED :( 

probably gained a Stone! 

sorry this post is a bit here there and everywere but im ever so tired, swear im still drunk or experienceing alcohol withdrawals. 

was up super early from work this morning and its just turned 3 so HOME TIME. 

ill post again with the news tomorrow.

-Love C

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ooooohhhhh SNAP

137.4 lbs

I GOT HERE THIS TIME BY DOING IT THE RIGHT WAY NOT BY VOMING IRRATIONALLY DUE TO A STOMACH BUG!

Hells fricking yes. I am deffintily NOT giving up what im doing now. 

I will deffinitly not binge!

everything seems to be falling into place. 

The girls cancelled last night so i didnt binge and didnt go even over 200cals... lets see

Breakfast:

Nothing (as always)

Lunch: 

Kiwi 14cals

Baby Biscotti 21cals

Dinner:

Apple puree 51cals

Can of full fat coke 42cals

Snack:

5 cherry tomatoes 11cals

Small chunk of cucumber 1cal

Total: 140

Exercise: 0

Had to babysit in the evening so a good distraction. 

babysitting all of today and then im rushing straight off to the theatre to see dirty dancing 

:D :D :D :D

(which is something else that went perfect, we were meant to be having dinner before as we always do but my dad is going to be stuck at work so my mum said eat before you come over! ... it's as if theirs a skinny gardian angel looking out for me!)

and then home to bed or R's depending how late i am. 

Stay strong. 

Hope your all having a good as week as me 

<3

-Love C

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Thank You

This is just a post to say a quick thank you to all of you readers

 <3

You have really made it alot easier to get through this and just knowing your there for support is great. 

Im officially back and wont be going anywere. 

Except 29th-5th June when im on holiday number 3

:)

Must get super skinny for it. 

COMMON LETS DO IT TOGETHER. 

p.s ran out of diet coke so had to have one of my brothers full fat. OMG i was sooooooo hungry before and now i cant finish the can. 

Kind of like how half a can fills you up. 

so half is only 21cals

actually not that ba, except for it being really heavy. If a drink can be heavy :/

idk.

Well thank you and love to you all! 

<3

-Love C

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