Keeping My Promise

So im keeping my promise that i would upload a picture.

I know im not usally one to blur out my face etc but its got W in it and so thought it best! 

The image is awfull and you cant really see the outfit soo tonight im going to get myself into it and take a picture of it on my camera and upload it for you. So you will either get it this afternoon or early morning :) 

my weight is slowly going up and i need it to go down. 

BUT

My card has declined from being sooo far into my overdraft (i dont have an overdraft or limit) that they have actually said enough! 

Ooopps

So cant afford food petrol anything sooooo my weight should platuea for a day or two getting used to being back into starvation mode and then it will start to go down again. 

Im getting back into the gym now. I WILL go tonight. Got my friend whos going to join me so thats a bit of extra motivation! 

 

Im now working 3 jobs as of the 1st october to try and pay for stuff. These other two are two days each both cash in hand so it will give me about 100 a week cash. 

 

But that will mean my october month is fine but then my hours go down at my main job so ill be working that 3 days -_- 

 

So ill have to get the babysitting an extra day. Make my wage go up a bit more as im soo busy and im in demand from the children. (What can i say kids love me....Shame i really cant stand these two kids)

 

And fingers crossed the nightclub gets a third night also that i can work on tills with or something. That would be reallly good. 

 

My addiction to energy drinks isnt going anywhere soon. 

I have to have atleast 1 can of energy drink to feel fine in the mornign otherwise i will be rocking what feels like a hangover untill i have one. 2 days of thinking i had a hangover untill i crached open a can of SF Monster. 3 sips in, headache had gone. I no longer felt like i was going to crash or be sickl. I instantly felt £1000000 pounds.

 

Now to get that much money! 

 

Will try and post pictures later. 

 

Love to you alll <3

 

-C

 

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Too Happy

134lbs

Travelled down to Windsor again last night. 

Last time ill be doing that trip - Just think of the petrol ill save! 

stopped off at the services and got a ham and cheese pastie.....I DONT EVEN LIKE THEM. 

Will was sooooooo perfect last night. 

Going on about how i was the best looking girl there and how it hasnt sunk in that im his girlfriend because its too good to be true. 

I dont know why he thinks he doesnt deserve me etc etc. Hes soooo much better than me. 

He's in general a better person, better looking, better job, better at everything. 

I want him soooo much. 

SO back to the main topic - FOOD

Im eating far to much/little of it. 

Im living off SF Relentless and a bag of crisps for lunch 

go home and if i eat its either something so small like a sandwich or Will and i will go big and have realllly unhealthy food. 

Like yesterday big bar of galaxy between us and a mcdonalds! 

i need to get back to my 500cals a day and exercise. 

5'10.5 and 134lbs 

BMI: 19.0

I want a bmi of 18.5 so i need to loooose 3-4lbs

I still have fat on me, its starting to go on my bellly. 

OOOooooo i wore the Unitard last night. 

When the pictures from the night go up ill post one even though i dont think its a full length.... 

If not ill take a piccy in it....

Hope your alll doing well. 

Lots of Love

- C

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133.0lbs 

yes i had a binge last night and im reallly suprised how i only put on 0.4lbs 

:/ 

How come when i have a big binge i dont put on as much as when i have a little binge?

Probably would have been less as my binge was at about 4pm but then i had a sandwich past 8 and the scales were 133 before i had that pitta bread. 

Ah well.

My promo team are back in North tonight 

:)

Soo happy because it means i can go out with them, MUST LEAVE BY 12.00AM 

ive got to be up at 5.30 to shower and get ready to be picked up for 6 to leave for the OLYMPICS

Off to see Athletics

:)

SOOO EXCITED

so i wont be able to post tomorrow or over the weekend so ill let you know my plan 

Thursday (today)

- work

- travel an hour up north 

- Hot Tub 

- Drink a bit

-Go into Town and drink 

-Drive home (fingers crossed) by 12.30am

Friday

-Leave for Olympics at 6am

-Travel around arena once games have finished (1.40pm)

- Go for food with family

- Travel back to Btown

- Get ready for a night out up North

-Travel up North

-PAARRTYYY

Saturday

-Travel back to Btown

- Back to Ntown for shopping and nails/Eyebrows done

- Back to Btown for the best steak around!

-BACK TO NTOWN for the launch party im running

-Dont know evening plans

Sunday

-DIE FROM HANGOVER

 - might go back out 

Monday

-Work and you shall hear from me 

:)

Hope your all ok! 

Stay Strong and Think Skinny 

- Love C

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SELF DISTRUCT MODE

132.8lbs

Arrive home from a very relaxed weekend away at centre parcs. 

My Promotions boss begs me to drive an hour to join him and shane for a hot tub and movie night. 

I go of course know that it ment hot tub and alcohol night. 

way to much alcohol consumed for a SUNDAY night and with work in the morning. 

Not going to go into details but yer, End up fucking my Promo boss. Thats going to be awkward next time i see him! 

Good rebound sex though!

sleep at 5am. 

Wake up at 7.30am On the hard floor with a rug as a blanket freezing cold with a guy either side of me. 

Is it strange that going out drinking with guys is way more fun than the girls sometimes! 

I know some of you wont be impressed and a side of me isnt impressed either but, ive just come out of a relationship and i just want to have fun, and whats the harm in that really? Im not putting myself in danger, im always letting people know were im going

:) 

Im having fun and thats all that matters right?

Oh and i got home from Centre Parcs and there was an envelope with my name on it!

 RICH WROTE ME A LETTER. 

 Must admit i didnt know wether to cry at it or laugh. Im mixed feelings about it. 

Hmmm he asked that he doesnt get a response from it so ill respect his wishes and not say anything. 

-Love C

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Follow Up

Weight: 138.8lbs

Height: 5'10.5 (to be exact)

Sex: Female

Age: 19 and 357days :D 

Ultimate goal: To be skinny weighing 125lbs

Food intake yesterday

Breakfast: Nothing

Lunch: 2 croissants 360cals

Dinner: 2 cheese sandwiches 332cals

Total:692cals

Exercise: Big fat Zero

Every day that England is raining heavily I want to book a plane ticket and fly the hell away from this miserable country. 

Its true that in rainy miserable weather your more inclined to comfort eat as there is nothing you can do outside. 

When its hot and sunny you dont want a nice english breakfast or something hot, you want nice refreshing fruit or more likley a bottle of water! 

I want to leave, i want to go do a season, i want to travel. 

Atleast my wieght is going down. Give me something more to eat and it will go flying up i bet. 

Actually going back to the gym tonight. Stomp FX class. 

KILLER. 

I dont even know how to make my posts more interesting ... Tell you all a secret?

You already know the biggest secret in my life.

Im poor, i have no money. Thats a lie i have £12- for the rest of the month to pay for petrol which i need atleast £60 to get to work and back for the rest of the month. 

In other words im screwed.

-Love C

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My big FAT Weekend

Still 140 lbs

I guess its better to maintain with the amount of shit ive been eating.

So i was at the jack wills Varsity Polo this weekend.

it was great fun, but alot of snack junk food was eaten and mcdonalds on the way home, Crisp sandwich when i get to R's and Chicken balls and Chips for dinner.

Ive realised that my eating is soooo unhealthy and fatty and seeing as ive been maintaining. Now im back to my restricting it should be ok and the weight should drop off like it did at the beginning and when i come back off holidays.

Im Doing a big lunch (not that its actually goin to be big, A sandwich or something and then something healthy and small for dinner.

A baby pouch or salad.

i will loose this weight.

I have a clubbing night out on Saturday also for my birthday but for the people who couldnt make it to jack wills and for the ones were jack wills was too 'posh' for them.

i have a family lunch that day too so if i eat that then something very small in the evening before i start drinking it should be ok.  then if i stick to vodka orange, sex on the beach or malibu and diet coke. (anything with diet coke) i shouldnt put on too much and it shouldnt be so much of a disaster :)

Who's ready to loose the unwanted pounds this week?

Stay strong and think Thin.

<3

-Love C
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After Shock

really sorry i didnt post yesterday i had to go with my friend to hospital as she was in alot of pain. 

Bacterial infection, Urine infection and a ripped cervix! 

OUCH. 

No wonder she was in pain. 

So the magical number youve all been waiting to hear. 

I should have taken bets on what my boozing holiday did to my weight.

140.2lbs 

:) 

Im soo  happy with that from the amount i ate. 

Burger king, pizza hut, alot of baguettes and bread. Burgers, steak. 

not to mention to alcohol calories! 

I guess sweating it out and all the walking helped! 

5th floor and the elevators smelt of wee or had sick in them so it was always stairs.

Back to my healthy eating now and seeing as im used to eating normal i guess as soon as i go back to my minimal the weight will fall off me like a fat pair of jeans! 

Jack Wills Varsity Polo tomorrow. 

Always go for my birthday. 

20years old on the 20th June. 

I CANNOT be fat in all my pictures. I know im going to be huge in JWVP ones but i cant exactly cut weight off in a day! Talk about the impossible! 

So 10 days ... a pound ish a day. I can be 136 for my birthday, i will be SOOOO happy. :)

Lets start.

Whos with me?

Stay Strong and Think Thin. 

-Love C

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(Just a bit of feather tatto thinspo <3)

Alot of people have the feather tatto on there rib! Guess i must have a common brain/imagination! 

Enjoy 

<3

MAGALLUF

Weight : Who knows

Alcohol Consumed : Who Kows - im probably still drunk

Food Consumed: Lunch and dinner everyday

Puked: 0 times

Toilet: I LIVED ON THAT THING

So as you can see from the above picture i had a pretty wild time! 

Oh i got my first tattoo.

Probably not the best place to get it as i know spain dont have the same rules and regulations. 

I swear it wasnt real as i hear the stories about it hurting and i had mine right on my ribs. 

TICKLED LIKE HELL. 

the guy had to keep telling me to stop laughing.

 In its clingfilm and its a bit flakey at the moment so when its healed ill take a better picture for y'all. 

I got the feather to resemble 'free spirit' as i do everything myself. Moved out at 18, LOVE getting out the country. 

Holiday number 4 in August! and might be heading back to Maga in July!

i love that more people are finding my site so HELLO 

:) 

Ill be stepping on the scales tomorrow morning ... AHHH IM SO SCARED :( 

probably gained a Stone! 

sorry this post is a bit here there and everywere but im ever so tired, swear im still drunk or experienceing alcohol withdrawals. 

was up super early from work this morning and its just turned 3 so HOME TIME. 

ill post again with the news tomorrow.

-Love C

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Mento's Gum

136.6 lbs 

I really dont know how i went up today. 

It has to be the late night meal i had. If you can call it a meal.

8.30 is never a good time! 

I was at work and a guy came to pick up some bits and bobs and said do i like gum. 

I obviously told the truth and said yes. and he gave me this HUGE pile 

:))

I LOVE GUM

So i think im stocked for a while now.

And mentos gum is actually really nice. 

My food for today is going to be 

small apple (which ive already had) 50cal

Yoghurt 119cal

Dinner:

1/2 Covent gardens soup 50cal

And i think this should suffice for the day.
Might slip in a banana as there going black so need to eat them soon before they go all horrible on the inside. 

I WILL be 135 tomorrow if it kills me!!!

Stay Strong

-Love C

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