Wishes and dreams

To have the 'gaunt look' 

To sit up and just have one skin roll ... Not fat

To lie down and be able to see straight down your pants as your hips bones stick out so much

To be able to see the whole of your spine when you bend forward

To see your ribs on your back. 

To be able to see the full length of your collar bone

To have your chest bones showing

To have that flat stomach

To have that gap between your legs.

To wear those size 8 shorts and for them to look to big

To have that hunger pang that means your not bloated

To have that pang that means your on  the right lines

to have that pang that means your getting thinner

to have that pang that means you will get your goal

For the girls to be jealous

for the guys to want you to be thiers

For everyone to see the control you have

For everyone to see your strong

9 hours awake today. 

0 cals consumed

I will get what i want.

 

Healthy Time

^^ My fridge^^

Just to state the tortellini pasta is my brothers along with the chicken and feta cheese.

So im going for a slightly higher calorie intake.

Not that it exceeds 500cals. 

Fruit for lunch/morning snack. Banana, apple, pinapple, mango.

Salad for dinner : lettuce, sweetcorn, tomato, cucumber, croutons, ham or tuna

Weight Watchers yoghurts - 54cals each! 

Carrot stick for evening snack

So yer. I had that last night and i never thought i could be full from a salad! Its strange how i ate alot of food and its sooo little in calories. (I made a big salad)

So didnt end up going to the gym...i pulled a muscle on monday and it was quite sore and didnt want to make it worse. Today its gone so no excuse. 

So my weight today id only 136.2lbs 

I think i could have gotten more if i went to the gym. 

Im so happy with this and its only a Wednesday. If i keep this up loose a pound untill Friday. i should be 134lbs roughly. And im not going out Friday and i need to be good on Saturday. And when i drink NOT to eat shit after. Im scared to drink on a salad belly though :/

Ive had lots of people asking me what the wobble machine is. 

wobble Machine Info 

that is it. 

It vibrates really quick. 

10minutes is equivilant to 1hour conventunal work out. (apparently)

it helps tone muscle and all that jazz. Also reduces cellulite and speeds up your metabolism. 

I like it after a long session on the cross trainer as it loosens my muscles so i dont feel sore the next day :) 

P.s i Ordered the zero stuff. 

41% extra fat burn here i come. 

 www.highfive.co.uk/try-zero 

Order the trial pack

- x3 tubes of zero

-x1 water bottle. 

Discount code: summer2012

Dont forget to select BFPO payment. 

They have a offer that if you ONLY buy that product you get free delivery but have to select that option. 

So instead of paying £24 odd for the stuff and £5.60 for P&P

You pay a total of £15 

40% discount baby. 

Cant wait for mine to come and get an easy ride to skinnyness. 

Skinny Together <3

-Love C

xxxxx

138.8lbs 

So i havent posted in a while, no its not because ive been away again. 

Ive been in my little town doing nothing...well not nothing. Ive been stuffing my face. 

So i havent wanted to post as ive been ever soo ashamed. But im now back into the 130's and I SHALL NOT get back into the 140's

Im back at the gym now. 

45mins Cross Trainer/elliptical (Whatever you want to call it)

5 Mins Wobble Machine. <-- LOVE THAT THING
 

Breakfast- Nothing

Lunch - 1/2 pack Spanish cherry tomatoes

Dinner - 2 Charlotte Pots

Small dipping bread in aviolli 

Small dipping bread with penut butter

Crisp Sandwich :(

But hey i still lost so fingers crossed for more losses. 

And seeing as ive been eating like a pig recently the weight should fall off. 

Ive realised i havent been loosing and when i do its because im drinking lots of water. So im back on my 2 litres of water thing. I can have a mini pig out as long as i have the water!!! 

and doing that i dont seem to have to much of a gain so yes. JUT DRINK WATER! 

how have all of y'all been doing?

Fingers crossed not failing like me. 

Ive been really terrible with reading blogs aswell. - SORRY!

But i will read as many as i can but i think ill only go back a day as i dont have enough time! 

Again sorry for abandoning you all. 

-Love C

xxxxxx

Cigerettes

I wish my hair was still long like this. 

Going to grow it and soon the hair dye will be fully in my hair and it wont be so soft and flat! 

Main thing i hate about dying hair. 

Cigerettes is what i used to live off when i looked like this.
I guess i know what i have to do.

If i go back to my old diet mixed with my new one i should be able to get there.

Breakfast: 

A few sips of Fizzy Lemonade to keep sugar levels up through the day. 

Cigerette

Lunch:

Freddo bar (not sure they do these anymore so im going to have my babyfood puree)

Cigerette.

Dinner:

Cigerette

1 piece of fruit

Exercise: 

Atleast an hour of something

if my body was that thin once i CAN do it again. 

My friends say it was too skinny, but to me that looks perfect. 

The hair in the first picture the size of the second picture. I will look FABULOUS 

<3

-C

136.8

 

Still ill today. Not as bad as yesterday and ive managed to eat more today. 

1/2 banana: 50cals

1/2 Cucumber sandwich: 90cals

Go Ahead bar: 144cals

1 slice bread:80cals

1/4can tomato soup:  62.5cals

i know ive ment to have given up bread for lent but under the circumstances i think im allowed to be let off. 

Ive dropped 4lbssince ive been ill. 

Im weak and no strength to get out of bed and do anything. 

I have no appetite...if only i could keep that. 

I want to be able to keep this weight loss! 

Id love it. Means I will have reached my mini goal of 135lbs by the end of the week :) 

Oh i would love to be 135lbs.

But i still dont think my body is perfect. Its still not right. will i be able to stop when i hit 130? 

Will i want to carry on losing weight?

What does that mean if i carry on loosing weight. Do i then get classed as anerexic as my BMI is underweight?

What does BMI count for anyway? Its a load of ballocks. I dont look like im starving myself. I dont look like i need a good meal. I look fine, I have a podgey belly. I have large thighs. 

I have the weight to loose. 

-C