Quick update

Only putting the total amount as I'm putting it into calorie counter and on your phone is a right mission!!!

Also Blogger isnt the easiest on your phone also.

So here's mondays and tuesdays and todays so far!

Monday:1187cals
Exercise: -2850cals 7.5hours skiing

Tuesday:1080cals
Exercise: -2100cals 7hours skiing

Wednesday(today):
So far I'm on 277cals according to calcount! Here in Norway they show the cals per 100g for everything and dont tell you how much everything weighs, also don't have scales of any sort in the cabin so yer, lacking in true knowledge. But over 2000cals a day isn't bad!

Not don't much skiing today, only 3 hours this morning and only have 3 hours left before it all shuts.

Slept in this morning as I was late to sleep :(

Hope your all staying strong <3

P.s I hope I hope I HOPE I've lost weight on this holiday!!!

-love C

Xx

Thank god for WiFi

So there will be no fancy pictures or centre aligning on my posts for the week, or really general information.

I'm using it to keep me on course to not over eat and nibble on crisps.

Said I was full and left half my spaghetti bolognese but carried on stuffing my face with plain lettuce... fingers crossed they don't susspect.

Todays intake: (remember its 8.30pm UK time and Ive Been up since 3.30am)

3mini pittas with chicken: 86x3+60=318cals
Satsuma: 35cals
M&ms (1/4 of a pack) 100cals
Coated peanuts: 50cals
Spaghetti Bolognese: 250cals

Total: 753cals

Skiing tomorrow. I will burn it off.

Also failed my lent eating the pitta but it was that or be questioned massivly by my parents!

Goodnight all.

Will post when I have time tomorrow

Stay strong and thing thin

-C

For the next week

So I don't know my worthy today and I'm at my parents with no scales (I stole them for my house)

Reason I'm at my parents is because in 5 hours I have to get up to drive to the airport to go skiing.

I'm figuring, if I managed to loose when I went to the carvery, I can so the same on holiday, going to be hard!!!!!

And with the level of exercise ill be doing ill be sure to burn it off. I'll keep a log of everything :)

Not sure when ill next be able to post, fingers crossed there's WiFi so I can use my dads iPad (must remember to figure out how to delete history! If there is one. Any of you guys know?)

Love to you all.

Stay strong and wish me luck that I do <3

-C

XxxxxxX

binge purge and repeat

So i found out my housemate is moving out, and i might be made redundant. 

So yesterday i found out about my job so i binged!

Was at R's so couldnt purge. 

And found out today my housemate has found a new house with his girlfriend of SIX MONTHS!

im happy because i fucking hate living with him! I just cant stand it. hes a nice person i just hate living with him and everthing he does. if he moves out i doubt ill ever talk to him again. 

But a girlfriend of six months is he playing some sick joke. I actually just want to laugh in his face and watch him ruin his life! 6 months of the two of them being together to move in and sign a 6 month contract! It's going to fail and im going to be there at the end screaming i told you so! 

His girlfriend stopped him staying here (his own home) because she didnt like that he lived with me. Somebody who is barley here because i have a boyfriend and spend most of my time there. Got jealous that his BEST female friend that hes known since junior school and she is one of the lads ... and not the smallest person ever. But she stayed in the guys tent at reading when they were high and drunk and she called him up saying hes not allowed to stay in that tent! OMG there as bad as each other.

I know i sound like a class A bitch, but im in a foul mood as you can tell and i just think its fucking rediculous and because there being idiots to move in so soon, i cant wait for it to end in tears and say i told you so!

Oh another addition to why im in such a bitchy foul mood is that i had lunch with my friend today: had a jacket potato with beans and cheese and garlic bread with cheese and curly fries.... I broke lent, then i purged. 

I then raided my cupboards and ate a whole packet of tuk biscuits ... 25 cals each but when you have about 25 of them its not good! 

Oh and then i purged that up! 

I then drank a WHOLE carton of apple juice to try use a natural laxative ... Normally works straight away. NADA. so thats just calories sitting there. 

Oh AND i have an organised dinner to go to.

Chicken, gammon and pinnaple mixed in sour cream and wrapped in pastry ... Not healthy!!!

Ergh i just want to cut my belly off! its soo fat and disgusting. why cant people see how horrible i look and smack every bit of food out of my hands?

Atleast i got some exercise in. 

  C

-Fatty McFat Fat over and out

After sticking to my yes foods, which is ALOT easier than restricting (even though i did stay low)

im back down to 140.6lbs after exercise 

 ... 

and a ROAST

 

R's dad wanted to go to the carvery and i went, had turkey (white meat on the yes list)

Had all of the carrots on my plate, half of the peas (i put alot on there)

1 potato and only ate probably half the meat. 

 

I cant believe i left food on the plate. Im sooooo impressed with me!

Also sticking to my no bread for lent. 

Todays intake: 

Banana: 105cals

1 rice cake: 41cals

2 tuk biscuits: 50cals

Mixed Salad with dressing: 150cals

Total: 346cals

Oh also had 2 cans of diet coke to keep me going through the hunger, and 3 cups of tea :)

Yesterday's Exercise:

Elliptical: 180cals

Treadmill: 145cals

Cycling machine: 85cals

Total: 410cals

Todays will hopefully be similar...had to distract myself on the cycling machine yesterday by emailing and reading blogs otherwise i can only do about 5 minutes before getting bored and acheing too much. 

Its a good trick, reply to all texts you've recieved, any emails .. or blog! 

Skiing next week: My mum said something strange to me the other day i wasnt expecting, usually she is all 'you must eat breakfast' as she knows i never really have. On skiing holidays especially she makes sure i eat it so i dont pass out on the slopes, but i said to her 'oh ill have to retrain my body when i get back not to eat breakfast' she just simply replied with 'just dont eat breakfast, have an extra 30mins lie in for the energy' 

WTF?!?! 

my mum i swear is loosing it. or she just thinks im soo fat (i already know she does as she tells me 'you could loose a few pounds') that shes trying to starve me aswell as myself! 

Atleast with the fact she is so desperate to get me to a stick if i have small portions she will praise me! 

People are saying I've gotten skinnier.

 I want to hear them wisper and say I've gotten too skinny!

Stay Strong and Think Thin

<3

-C

Quick Note:

I was looking online for people who have gained weight eating over 500cals and found something! 

The above is what i took out of the reply from a doctor. Yes foods are foods that digest easily so you are unlikey to gain weight (this is all within consideration rememeber) and the no foods are foods that dont digest well causing you to gain!

I was sooooo shocked when i found out half of the 'No' foods. 

I will reach my goal of having the type of stomach i used to! 

Thats me below when Ana was my best friend through school. That was when my breakfast was a glass of diet lemonade, my lunch money went on cigerettes and i think i ate a 15p fredo bar with the left over change. then i would have a sandwich for dinner. 

Was soo much easier when at school and you were constantly busy! And you didnt have enough money for everything. 

I was an amazing size 4! then i got a job and discovered money and baguettes for lunch! 

i appologise for the image: I dont smoke weed anymore...used to, only occasionally. But i dont touch the stuff now, just makes me feel ooozey! 

But i just wish i had that AMAZING hour glass stomach back, God much better than my flab! 

How/why did i ever let meself go.

I must get back to my old weight. i wont be happy untill i do. 

 

Hope you enjoy the food list as much as i do :) 

Stay Strong and Think Thin. 

-Love C

I Just want to starve untill everything gets better!

So i did OK with food yesterday, and went to the gym ... think i had just under 600cals and i still gained! Its impossible to to gain anymore! 

Researched foods to increase my calories without gaining so i can get up to 1000 and then drop back down to 500. just kick start my body again. 

So today ive had 1 banana and 1 rice cake. 

Going to the toby carvery this evening for R's dads birthday. 

Sticking to white meats and going to try and go healthy! 

Found out we have a work department meeting on Monday....we NEVER have meetings so its only going to be bad. 

Im also not here so im panicking even more. 

We all think its a consultation for redundancy! 

Not good. 

So i cant do my job right, i cant loose weight right, i just cant do anything right. 

Exercise makes me put on weight ... and no i dont weight my self after, i weigh in the morning after a nice sleep! 

Its getting worse and worse. 

Skiing holiday starting on Saturday .. this is only going to go badly! 

Ergh, why cant i loose. 

I can see myself getting up to 145lbs before being able to drop well into the 130's. 

I couldnt drop to below 300cals, tried that on the ABC-i just binged lots. 

My weight is fluctuating sooo much, and the stupid graph on Caloriecount is not helping my motivation. 

JUST ERGH! 

-C

Lent

140.6lbs 

Why do i weigh less in the morning after swimming and yoga than i do at the gym?

STRANGE!

So im giving up bread for lent, I think my body knew this as i had THREE sandwiches yesterday and a random slice of bread and butter! ergh

So no more from now on! 

Im going to be having Ryvita and rice cakes as my alternative, i know it means i can have sandwiches, and the worse thing is i used to have ryvita with light as light philidelphia but when my Lactose Intorlerance got really bad i cant have any dairy (butter is the only thing as I use a tiny amount)

Any of you know other things i can put on it?

Rice cakes have their own flavour, might get some plain and spice them up with vegtables.

So i have 16lbs or 15.6lbs to go whichever way you want to look at it.

So Marla and I have the same amount to loose and a similar timeline, We also have our plan i was talking about, im going to make it a little less like a child has done it when i get a free moment. (day off today and soo much to do)

HAIRCUT TODAY :) Im getting alot cut off, it will still be classed as long but my hair is to the extreme. I want it to sit just below my collar bones!

Back to the timeline weightloss thing. 

32days to loose 16lbs, 3lbs a week....boy this is going to be TOUGH. 

Im ok if its 1.5lbs a week, i just need to be near 130lbs. I just want to be skinny!

 Any of you have a little secret tip on how to make this work?

Open to anything :) 

Stay Strong and Think Thin <3 

-Love C

Hello Strangers

Im soooo sorry i havent posted in a few days, but my weight has ben up and down and im just trying to get back to my post bing bing bing weight: I keep having really really good days were i feel like im on target, i go to R's and he feeds me. I have to eat it because he doesnt believe me that im eating when im at home! 

He knows im going to the gym can he not think that the weight loss is because of that? Not because of near starvation?

Does he not understand that i LOVE the feeling of being hungry and starving myself?

I drew up Marla and my plan last night (before i went to R's) and its pretty rough untill i can be bothered to do it all over again...Ill scan it in while im at work!

To show you the type of failure i am my weight has gone up to 142.0lbs!!!!!!!! 

142.0lbs ..... thats fricking huge! 

not seeing R so i wont eat what i dont really want. 

Yesterdays intake:

Breakfast: nothing :) ]

Lunch: Cucumber Sandwich + Fruit selection - 100cals

After Gym Snack: Banana - 100cals

Dinner: Mixed Salad - 170 cals

Total:  370

Gym workout total: 410cals burned

What i then went on to eat at R's:

Tuna sandwich (with horrible thick white bread) 300cals

Wotsits: 95cals

2 digestive biscuits: 75cals

Total: 470cals + 370cals = 840cals (sucks how that makes me gain!)

HELP ME! why do i gain on 800 calories, why do i have to stay under 500 even when im working out. 

Would be great to have an allowance of no gaining untill im over 1000cals 

All it means is im going to have to restrict more to get the fat off my body! 

Not feeling well today, pretty much the same as every other day. 

Just the feeling to be sick everywere, headache etc. Think i have a virus :(

Great timing with skiing at the weekend! 

Stay Strong and Think Thin. 

-C

Its working

You know its working when your friends say while pre drinking 'youve lost soo much wieght' only a stone ... nothing to be proud about! Need to get rid of 15more pounds about ill be happy!!!
Oh ended up out (can't remember if I mentioned that I was going to have a dinner with my parents my brothers new girlfriend and let them meet rich ... but noooo he's havining dinner with his parents which he always cancels to get take aways with me! He just doesnt want to meet them. I know were from different familes but it sucks!!)
Night is going good, fuck knows how many calories in alcohol I've consumed ... wish me luck!
Stay strong and think thin
-C
xxxx

Stat Update

So its been 1 month and 18days since i started this blog and just want to say thank you to all you wonderfull readers :)

Ive gone from 154lbs to 140lbs in this time ... wish it could have been more but hey, 

So for my stats, i thought id put the ones up from the 1st January and then today, 18th February. 

Weight: 154lbs

Bust: 38.3"

Hips: 35.4"

Waist: 30"

Thigh: 23.2"

BMI: 22.7

Height for you that dont know: 5'10

And TODAYS <3

Weight: 140lbs

Bust:35"

Hips: 33"

Waist: 26"

Thigh: 22"

BMI: 20.1

Off on a night out in Oxford tonight, fingers crossed it wont be tooo expensive, but im having to plan my food well: Going for a very light day, probably a banana before the gym then wait untill 6 to have beans on toast ... im having that as i know its a good liner for my stomach when im restricting so much.

Also the alcohol limit is going to be off of the scale (is it bad that im hoping to vomit by the end of the night to get it all up?)

Also if i do go for food, to have chips, no cheese, though i cant have it anyway being L.I. but no salt and vinegar OR ketchup or mayo ... just plain :)

Fingers crossed it will keep me down. 

Im thinking 100for the banana, 200 for the beans on toast. work out so i burn minimum 300cals

That way i can have 500cals tonight. (with the lack of food half a bottle will do me for the night so thats 250cals and the rest foooood)

Going to do my magical tip to make sure you dont get a hangover, my friends just think im lucky as i refuse to tell them my secret and let them suffer! every drink you have, ask for a tap water, doesnt have to be a pint, but just drink one glass for every alcoholic drink you have, youll be suprised it doesnt sober you up, but means you can go longer, you dont get uncontrolable and you can wake up early and not waste your day :) No excuse to not go to the gym the day after!

Stay strong and Think Thin. 

- C 

My beautiful day of trying

I work out, i restrict but why do i not look like this! Its not fair ..

I go to the gym and this is what i feel like! 

woke up and that scale number made me actually hate myself! Id done that so today im changing! 

Went to the gym worked my big cabooty off!

Waiting to make a nice salad for dinner!
Egg whites, lettuce, tomatoe, cucumber, and well any veg i have in my fridge!

Todays intake:

Cucumber sandwich: 50cals

Cucumber chunk: 5 cals

Banana: 100cals

A veg filled salad (including the egg white): 120cals

Total:  275cals

And i worked off 300cals

so technicall i ate less than i have! SO I SHOULD SEE THE SCALE GO DOWN! 

I best see that scale go down or else!!!

I think i did well for today with my fruit and veg ...

Oh i forgot, Ive made a pact with  Marla Singer 

We shall eat 3-5 fruit or veg a day, and do a sort of switch diet.
So we remove something unhealthy and replace it with something ALOT better. 

This week its Fast food, and well replacing it with anything really ... Were coming up with a weekly plan so its alot easier to stick to!. 

Its also really nice having somebody close on this weight loss journey to the perrrfect body! 

Funny how this blogging does help, two people who have never met and live in two completly different countries!

Oh and the exercise part. If we cannot make it to the gym or have time to do a workout video or yoga video to do 20 sit up when we can fit it in.

A few links if you fancy trying them:

This is my favourite workout video: Pump it up: High energy There are 3 parts! so no just doing 1 or 2.

And this is my favourite Hatha Yoga video when i want something a little nicer because im really tired or ache way to much for the gym (perfect to get rid of aches) Hatha Yoga 42 minutes

Hope you enjoy them as much as i do! Oh for the pump it up video i suggest having a bottle of water not a glass - your going to want LOTS!!

Stay Strong and Think Thin

- C

Jinxed it

Yep jinxed it!

Ended up eating two cookies and a bag of crisps (the big bags)

Back to 142.6lbs....Actually want to curl up under my douvet and cry. 

I did this to myself so i have to fix it.

cucumber sandwiches made for lunch.

banana for after gym ... and dinner, well i havent planned that far yet as i have anything i want.

I can plan this food as thats all im taking with me!

Wish me luck!

I will get back to 139lbs before i do my stats.

Stay Strong and Think Thin

-C

So far so good (please dont be a jinx)

Woke up had a nice tomato and lettuce sandwich before heading off to the gym!
 

elliptical: 179cals

Treadmill: 95 cals

Rowing Machine: 45cals

Cycling machine: 44cals

Total: 363cals


Then did ironing and food shopping for my mum and ended up having probably whats smaller than a childs portion of this dish which looked amazing in here oven. Looked like a shepherds pie, but instead of mince it was gammon strips chicken broccoli in a sauce i couldnt tell as it had all dried up. (was there dinner last night) Its was gooood.

So to be on the safe side im saying 200cals. So today is 300cals.

Not sure on dinner but im making sure i hit 500 :)

I will have the perfect beach body sooon!

Love to you all . 

Stay strong and think thin. 

-C

Interesting girls night

Didnt think girls night was going to happen but it did,

So 1100cals later (ontop of my calories already) we are all talking about weight. Isnt it funny how girls all think about this. We were going through pictures of girls and they were saying all of the pictures i picked out (pretty much everyone thats been on this blog) were way to skinny and looked ill.

I dont think that i have ever put a picture up of a girl that look ill. they all look perfect.

But then again the two girls i was with who were saying it, one went all quiet and pretended to sleep as we worked out our BMI's (i already knew mine, but couldnt exactly tell them that) L and I were in the lower half of healthy but B was well into the overweight section. What really pissed me off and made me eat soooo much is that she kept saying, i must just be heavier because were the same size! OMG I actually wanted to cry, purge and repeat. But i cant do that with them here, and even when there gone i cant as my brother is in the house sleeping right by the bathroom so he WILL be able to hear.

So i ate. A WHOLE pizza and 5 chicken balls.

I am so full all i want to do is be sick. might turn the shower on and purge.... why do i have to be such a loud puker?

L suggested us doing a restriction diet and go down to 1200cals. Little does she know.

Atleast ive managed to keep up appearances infront of my friends.

Ergh i feel terrible ... Im going to purge. I dont care if my brother hears ... ill say i must not have cooked the pizza right or something, not that he cares.

Stay Strong and think Thin. 

-C 

Gym Done

God i feel great after that workout! 

Had to get off the elliptical as i was 90% sure i was about to pass out through hunger.

Left, enquired about group membership (i got to 3 different leisure centres for different things)
Got home had a smoke- i dont usually do this but 1 has been left in the pack right by the recycling for days so i decided to smoke it while taking the rubbish out.
Had my shower and here i am ... Not hungry!

See if i can have a few hours of this! Only have a nice bag of Snack a jacks to keep me going anyway.

Intake:
Half a large magic star 82cals

(I know but when getting my trainers out the wardrobe i found my christmas presents bag and that was in the bottom!!)
Sweetcorn Sandwich 48+8= 56cals
Snack a Jack packet 106 cals
and then another for dinner 106cals
(yes im adicted to them!)

Total: 350cals

See how much easier it is without a strict allowance. stopping the ABC was deffinitly the right choice for me!

Lets start loosing again. 

Gym:

15minutes Treadmill: -102cals

Exercise bike: -88cals

elliptical: -92cal
Total: - 282cals 

Im Sorry

141.4lbs

im sorry,

Im giving up the 30day challenge. I havent been doing so well on it. 

It trigger binges, and because i binge i purge. And im trying to stop that!

ive noticed my teeth are getting more and more yellow

YUK

So im going back to my 500cal allowance. If i go over its then my problem.

500cals gives me tons to play with rather than 150.

Again im super sorry..

2 Jumbo cornish pastys yesterday 1000cals
Tuna melt baguette 300cals

Total: 1300cals

Disgrace.

Ill do better today - i promise.

Gym tonight. I  WILL go.

Stay Strong and Think Thin.

I will get down to 130lbs by the end of April if it kills me. I must! If im lower its BRILLIANT.

Hope you all had a nice Valentines day!

-Love C

Xxx

Failure

I binged then purged

F**king great.

It's started again.

-C

ABC 30 Day Challenge: Day 8 & 9

Just a quick note, Sorry i didnt post yesterday, i have been really busy and trying to keep up appearances is HARD!

Day 8: 400cals

4 small maryland cookies 100cals

cucumber sandwich on white bread 150cals

Cheesy Wotsits 95cals
Total: 345cals

Question: Three Things you want to say to different People?
To R: I love you, im sorry i cant say it. I guess its something to do with letting people in or something, or maybe im just completly messed up. But i do. I really do.

To J (R's best friend who i dated 3 months before R): Your so insecure, having to try and ruin things between R and i because we didnt work out. Also i want my DVD's back and if you dont ill let R know that you still have all the texts and pictures i sent you ... he wont be happy about that will he and you KNOW all of your friends think your a massive bellend for showing them the pictures already, they will think your on a complete new low with this. Oh and they already think your pathetic for being jealous and being mean to R for actually being nice to me! (even though i could never do that and ruin sombody's life even if they deserve it)

To J (My best friend): Where have you been? I know your serious with your boyfriend, but you were before you broke up for a month and you still made time to see me. In the month you wernt together you spent pretty much every day with me and i helped pick you up and put you back together and make you see things clearly. You then got back together with him and shut not only me out but EVERYONE. We know you have a new job but it doesnt go on that late that you cant stop by my house on your way home (which you have to pass anyway) I miss you and would be really good to tell my best friend about whats going on in my life. Do you even know about R and I? No because you dont reply to texts, phone calls. The only way I know you still think of me as your best friend is when i visit your store and you say ooooo give my best friend here a discount.

Day 9: 500cals
Juice: 300cals

Cucumber Sandwich: 50cals
Salad: 130cals
Total: 480cals

Question: Pet Peeves
People using slang words i.e totes, foreves, nout, lol etc Just say the whole word! How much time are you saving?!?!
Also the toilet seat being left up. It should stay down.

Oh just thought i would let you know Day 7 didnt go as well as planned. I didnt end up having the spaghetti, i went to have dinner with my dad as he had to stay behind while my mum went to visit my nan as he had to work and was going to be eatng alone and i felt really bad. So i had a chinese. I regret to inform you girls that my 30days detox from not purging didnt happen :( I then went out and got drunk and had chips for my walk home! What a disaster. So my weight is now 140.6lbs but i am on my period and im pretty amazed it hasnt gone up more if im honest!

Stay Strong and Think Thin

p.s Sorry abotu the long post.

-C

ABC 30 Day Challenge: Day 6&7

140.8lbs

Kind of knew this was going to happen

Day 6: 200cals
2 Cupcakes 200cals

4 50/50 Kingsmill Bread Rolls 616cals
2 Bags of walkers french fries crisps 167cals
Cucumber Sandwich 50cals
12 tuk Biscuits 300cals

Total: 1333 cals

Gym: 30 minutes on the treadmill

Question: What Band or Music is most important to you?
I dont really have a specific type of music i like to listen to, i have a very eclectic taste in music.
I think i listen to alot of chill out music the most to calm my down, so Imogen heap, her former band Frou Frou, The Fray, Mumford and Sons etc but i do like all the current hits to get ready to in the morning and for nights out.
I listen to radio 1 on my way to work and have a good sing along :) 

Would just like to apologise for the 3 posts yesterday! quite alot. But i had such a terrible day. My card got a fraud stamp on it so i had to fix that (anybody hate calling the bank, your on the phone for agessss) then went to buy some new running trainers as my ones are ruined and my card wouldnt work there or at the cash point so off to the bank i went, got some money out and ordered a new card as my chip is broken! fucking great.
Paid for my items. dished out over £50 but its my goal treat (even though i shouldnt have allowed myself it after my binge) Went to my car 5 mintues late and i had gotten a parking ticket! ERGH FFS!!
Also found out the reason i felt so ill in the day yesterday (sorry this is ALOT of information you probably dont want to know) But my tampon applicater had 2 tampons in side by side so when they expanded it was alot wider than usual so caused the large amount of discomfort which made me want to vom. So yer. let P&G know and i get free tampons -whey im ever so lucky!! (sarcasm)

Day 7: 300cals (ill do better today)

yoghurt 91cals
heinz Spaghetti bolognase and sausage 184cals

cucumber chunk 5 cals

Total : 280cals

Exercise: 30 minutes Hatha Yoga

Question: Dyou read? What are you favourite books?o 

Yes, I do read. my favourite books are fantasy. I must admit i did read all the twilight books (much better than the films) i LOVE the mortal instruments series...alot darker than twilight but im a big scaredy cat when it comes to horror so there not that bad. Have spent a night in the freezer before. Then again most of my books have as they've scared me!
Also the House of night series....can you tell these are all vampire/imortal type books. Told you fantasy. something that i can pretend and go into my own little world. I could read and read forever if i didnt have soo much other things to do!

R and i booked Turkey Yesterday. Its official 20th April to 27th We are going to Turkey. I know its not going to be that hot, But bloodey warmer than the UK.
Would still Love to hear if any of you have been there!

- C